Going caveman in my life , detox my house.
Traveling to work in the same old routine and waking up alone looking in the same mirror at the reflection every morning.
I'm not depressed, I just find it difficult to break the cycle of patterns I have fallen in to. Much like the others who I work with and associate , seems life makes it easy to get in to a groove. The people who do well always do well and the people who struggle always struggle, then there is my type the guys in the middle, I can have flashes of sucsess but on Tue whole most things just drift allong, not in a situation where times are hard but neither in a situation where life is amazing , just the void in the middle.
So I like my job but feel like I could do better.
I like the routine , but at the same time it sickens me.
My family and friends.we all get along just fine, but it doesn't feel like an honest powerful connection, more like we just get along together , just enough.
As I've been eating and exersising like a in modern man. I can't help but question the other aspects such as my work to live and my relationships with my self and others.
Things like , the obsession with the web, movies porn and computer games have got to stop. I'm spinning my wheels, round and round.
With out these what is my goal, ultimatly I would like to spend my time doing something I love and enjoy with people I love in a place i love.